2019 has been a year of extreme testing and extreme blessing for me. One of the areas I have been experiencing a lot of testing in is health. I won’t share all the details, but I do have a couple of very stark examples that will give hope to others. Hope to not give up, to keep going, and to believe in the healing power of Jesus for believers.
In order to share the power of my own experiences, I need to lay a foundation of belief. The Bible is very clear that followers of Jesus are in this world, but not of this world. Understanding what it means to be in, but not of, the world is an integral part of receiving the healing power of Jesus. The world is not being run by God. The world is broken, which is why Jesus came to SAVE it. If God was running earth, it would not need to be saved. Think about that.
God the Father
God is a good father – He does not use disease to teach believers lessons. He does not punish Christians. He is not watching for every slip up in order to throw lightning rods of judgment our way. God loves us into obedience, by showing us over and over again how much He cares for us.
As good parents, we do not stand by and wait for our kids to mess up so that we can say “I told you so.” We do not wish disease and accidents onto our children because they are not perfect. Good parents want their children to avoid heartache, and they do everything in their power to protect and guide their offspring into this. Good parents would trade spots with their kids when they are sick anytime, anywhere. The Bible is also very clear about this: If you then, evil (sinful by nature) as you are, know how to give good and advantageous gifts to your children, how much more will your Father who is in heaven [perfect as He is] give what is good and advantageous to those who keep on asking Him (Matthew 7:11, Amp).
Healing starts with our belief in God as a good father. It starts with our full trust that God wants only the best for his children. It begins when we understand our positions as sons and daughters of the Most High. If you are a Christian who believes that God CAN heal you, but you find yourself doubting if God WANTS to or WILL heal you, this is a form of unbelief in your position with God.
God is Willing to Heal
The story of Jesus healing the leper was placed in the Bible for the special purpose of showing us that God is always willing to heal. This story went out of its way to emphasize that Jesus is WILLING to heal. God loves you. He wants the best for you. He gave UP the best for you. God wants you healed and healthy.
The Bible is also very clear that Jesus suffered during his death. Suffering that purchased healing for us. The Bible references that …by His stripes (wounds) we are healed (Isaiah 53:5, AMP) . Jesus did not have to suffer physical torture in order to save us from our sins – He just had to die on a cross to redeem us from the curse. However, He also suffered extreme physical torment. He went above and beyond what was needed, so that we can have access to all He purchased.
The Healing Power of Jesus is Already Yours
Changing our way of thinking and being able to believe fully that God wants to heal us provides a sense of freedom. It does not mean that sickness will not come. Sickness is part of a broken world. It just means that we have to fight FROM victory, not FOR victory. Fight the battles of sickness in your life knowing that the HEALING POWER OF JESUS IS ALREADY YOURS.
This is my breakthrough to share. As I said earlier, 2019 has brought some health tests my way. The first test involved an MRI to rule out organic (and scary) causes of ongoing migraines. Another test involved further evaluation because of an abnormality discovered in a mammogram.
In between my doctor’s appointment recommending an MRI and my actual MRI appointment, I was scared. We all know the point of an MRI – to rule out a brain tumor causing headaches. When you are an anxious person anyway, this kind of medical procedure can cause devastation in your mind and heart. In the midst of this fear, I decided to put what I have learned recently about God and healing to the test. I decided to speak over myself and my brain that I am ALREADY HEALED.
I don’t want to make this sound easy because it was not. I did not feel healed. My head hurt, and I had even more headaches leading up to the procedure. I had thoughts flash through my mind that I don’t even want to put on paper. However, I firmly decided I was going to trust God. Not what people say so easily in these situations – “If God wants me healed, I guess He will heal me.” No. I took a stand.
I said out loud “I know God has already healed me through Jesus, so I AM HEALED.” I took communion whenever I felt scared, to remind myself of what Jesus went through for me. I made index cards of the healing promises in the Bible to put in front of my face whenever horrible thoughts plagued me. I spoke my healing out loud, and I asked believers to agree out loud with me. I also made a point not to spend time talking to people who I knew would try to convince me otherwise. I avoided discussions with people who make statements like “if it’s God will for you to be healed, then you’re right – you will be.”
This is going to be controversial, and that is okay. If you are believing in healing manifesting for yourself, stop talking to anyone who doesn’t have a firm foundation that healing is already accomplished. If you were trying to follow a recipe for goulash, you wouldn’t ask people who have never made goulash before what to do. When you are trusting God to manifest a promise in your life, naysayers and critics are not needed. Find people who will speak the truth for you and to you. Death and life are in the power of the tongue, and those who love it and indulge it will eat its fruit and bear the consequences of their words (Proverbs 18:21, Amp).
Fast forward to my MRI results – not only did I get them extremely quickly (less than 12 hours), but they were also extremely normal. Coincidence? Absolutely not. It was a full manifestation of what I believed God for, and I will give Him all the glory for it.
By the time my abnormal mammogram rolled around, I had several more opportunities to practice this throughout the year. I went to my appointment, prayed thanksgiving that the results would be normal, and went about my day. Three days later I received a phone call from my doctor – results were not normal. I had a nodule. I needed more testing because it could be breast cancer.
Many people would point to this and use it as “evidence” against healing because I had believed for normal test results. I was actually EXCITED about this because I knew it was another opportunity to test out my belief in the healing power of Jesus. For someone with my level of anxiety to be excited about this is completely abnormal.
When I got the “bad” report from my doctor, I did not panic. I refused to say the words “I am worried.” I told the receptionist who gave me the report thank you. I talked to a prayer warrior who I knew would agree with me in healing already being finished. I prayed thanksgiving with my husband for my follow up testing being normal. I never “asked” God to make my follow up normal; I thanked Him that it was normal. This is so imperative – to access the manifestation of finished works, believers have to speak what is not. That is the true definition of faith: belief in what you cannot see.
Here are more things I did not do: I did not fast for healing. I did not spend hours on my knees, begging God for good results. I did not look up all the rates of breast cancer for people with a family history of the disease. I did not speak concern over the potential results. I spoke only thanksgiving that my results would be completely normal, in Jesus’ name.
Can you see the paradox that makes this so difficult? In the midst of abnormality, how can we speak normalcy? In the midst of very real bad results, how can we speak a belief that they are actually good results? The only answer is faith in the finished work of healing.
On the day of my follow up testing, the technician took some images and looked at them very closely. She sighed and said she needed to talk to the doctor. She sent me back to the waiting room, to my husband and our healing verses written in a journal we brought with us. We prayed thanksgiving for normal results together. We prayed in the spirit. We waited. After about 10 minutes, there was a knock on the door. The doctor told us he had good news – all was normal. I smiled and told him we knew he would have good news because we prayed about it and believed I was healed. He said it was nice to be an answer to prayer.
I walked away from this experience packed full of God’s love and goodness. I basked in the warmth of his special treatment of me. And above all else, my heart grew in gratitude for the sacrifice Jesus paid so I can have this special treatment. I know I don’t deserve it, and I know it was purchased for me by Heaven’s perfect lamb.
Hope for Believers
My only desire in sharing this is to give someone else hope. I am not saying that anyone experiencing sickness does not have faith. I am not saying believers will never be sick. I am saying the opposite actually. If you are being tested with sickness, I am sharing the way my healing was manifested so you can feel renewed hope. Instead of begging God, I am begging you to believe in the healing power of Jesus. I am praying that this will lift you up and give you a clear direction of what to do in the midst of sickness.
If you are a believer in Christ, Jesus has already bought healing for you. It is sitting on the shelf. You just need to pick it up and use it. It’s a free gift, and I pray your belief will carry you to it.